WAAAA. NEW YEAR! and yeah, it's a bit ok but not that good. just check THIS if you want. And yeah, i think i'm gonna die of boredom right now. SOMEONE! ARASHI!!! HELP ME!!!
PS: I'm really becoming a fangirl or I am already a fangirl. LOL.
In Isaiah 29 God complains about worship that is half-hearted and hypocrytical. The people were offering God stale prayers, insincere praise, empty words, and man-made rituals without even thinking about the meaning. God's heart is not touched by tradition in worship, but by passion and commitment.
"These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. THeir worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men. -Isaiah 29:13
Bringing pleasure to God is called worship Worship is far more than music. Worship is not for yur benefit. Worship is not a part of your life; it is your life.
I'll add some more but right now. I want to sleep. finished my 2nd journal *sigh*
so... argh! i thought what i wrote was going to be saved before i signout and continue it. but blah,it didn't. so yeah...
so, this one person again said some shit that argh! I'm moving right now then she made things freakinnn bigg again. I'M HEALING RIGHT NOW. NEED SOME SPACE. BEEN A LONER. MOVING ON. TRYING TO FORGET OR I AM FORGETTING IT. Going to talk to her soon and this piece of shit made it worst! what's more, she really made it really really worst! now she's the fault that i'm still not gonna talk to her. freakkin made it worst!!! i hate people who make small things bigger. like you! i wish i just gone out by myself. argh! freak! i hate you! good thing you went home asshole. i don't want to sound harsh to you even if your my relative but i don't think you are. thanks for the things you gave to me. but argh, i really dobn't wanna talk to you. Someone wants to buy our house in Phil. and my dad is going to get his driver's license. i think. OH GOD! please, i wanna get out of this freakinnn house! She even told me that she's worrying about me and I'm causing her more stress/problem/headache for her. WTFCUK? If she's the one who really has a problem is she's makin' it a problem. she thinks i'm snobbing her, huh! that's her problem. well, I'm not. i just want some space and move on then i can be a teen that i used to be. Fcuk! Now I HATE YOU! NOT THE YOU BUT THE OTHER. THANK YOU for making it even worst and now I'm not going to talk to her soon. It doesn't matter to me. i have books to read and movies from Trizza. I hope she can bring some...
hmmm. ignore or talk. hay nako ayokong sabihin... sa bahay ko nalang isusulat. i'm at my tita's house. nasermunan pako. tama nga sbi nila: sana di nalang ako pumunta dito at gumala magisa. argh! damn it! later.
I'm searching some videos and I found this, acoustic version. haha, tuwang-tuwa lang ako at naelibs kay Hayley :) ang galing nia :) haha. i like the song and the band :)
As a rhetoric complaineee, this entry wouldn't be hard to write and all my thoughts are flowing right now that I need to put it down. I just really have to extract this out of me.
Shouldn't you be credited for all the arduous work I've done? It's not a bad thing to try hard. Am I just too disturbed about my marks. Having results I don't hink I deserve. Is it just my stupidity or the teachers? Like one of mine. Projects coming up handing it the next week, main ones! I feel so horrified that I think I'm going to have stress problems thinking about it. TIMIDness about my grades, makes me try hard. I AM TRYING HARD. Don't they see it? Teacher's making mistakes about my grades, the first itme I saw a ZERO! in my progress report. I feel I'm going to break! i am really just being concern that I don't know what to do! I think this 2 years of my life, studying has been my life and I don't want to swear as much as I can but-- FCUK! Do I deserve that? It's not that I don't or I deserve it but, how about a honorable mark. Having progress reports today, giving back my guitar test, RELIGION! RELIGION! It's just religion I know, i should get a high mark! rarrr!!! I think I'm getting lower and lower marks now =(
I need some inspiration and strength: GOD
Just one word:HELP!
I have no idea what my editorials and advise columns are gonna be? =(
Being depressed means you can spend all day in bed, and still not get a good night's rest
If I am not for myself, who will be for me? If I am not for others, what am I? And if not now, when?
I feel so fragile and vulnerable. If someone touch me or say something to me, I can easily break and just don't talk to anyone.
Sabi ko sa sarili ko na di na ko magpupuyat s acomputer at matutulog na ko ng maaga at mag-aaral na ko ng mabuti. Bat di ko magawa? sh*tness! i have a religion test tomorrow the course i just moved in to. Goodluck to me.
Anyway, I really am wondering why i can keep up with my blog. sh*tness! focus on studies. Like what Ate Mary said: "BE NERDY." haha.
Ate Thea and Ate Pam was here a while ago. well since it's 12 already i will say yesterday. chill outside and at out foyer and tlak and talk and laugh and laugh. I returned Ate Pam's sweater and lock cause she wasn't at school for the locker cleanout last year. And yeah, I'm nearvous eventhough it's just religion, i might still fail it. *dug-dug. dug-dug* (heartbeat)
'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table No one can find the rewind button
I'm here at my old comm tech class which I miss the most :( chillin and not doing work is what i always do in this class. It's like i never used a computer, haha. But Applemac, shit! i really like this computer. Since ate thea went home, i might just spend my time here.Mr. Fitz let me in and when got out of t he room he told me to just close the door when I'm going out and i said ok :) haha. then later I'm going to the LA Music or Guitar World. I don't know to get some strings. and make De Castro fix it (sorry for saying this all the time)
Thursday: Religion quiz,i just came at this class yesterday and there's a quiz! Perotta told me that I'm not going to write it so I'm free. But i have my guitar quiz. We have to play 3 songs (1 picked by us, Merry Go Round, and a wild card.
I'm going to spend my time here so i might be writing a lot in here. haha.
i can't write anymore. time goes by sofast when I'm in front of the computer. it's a pretty nice chill place :)
haven't updated this blog for so long. let's kickassfcuk.
Naglalaban c Roddick at Federer ngayon. haa. Go Federer! loser na c Roddick. argh! kahapaon natalo c Hardene, mas gusto ko siyang manalo kaysa kay Sharapova. elk..
I woke up early in the morning to go to church with my Daddy. and we walked up to the go train cause there's no bus from our hosue to the go train. when we arrived at the union station. we walked for miles and miles and miles. it's a spiritual battle that i have to do. we walked the freakinn Front St. then the veryy long Spadina. haha. but that's fine. then we sang praise and worship then they talked about hte youth thingy then they have to like meet in the hall 2 (i think that's the place we went to). and we talked about the whole book of Ephisians which is a really good book and we also sang songs and playing their guitar. i wanna play mine too at church :( when we left church, we also took the same route. alay-lakad
we ate at Mr. Sub with my Dad and when we looked at the schedule for the train, we alreadt missed it for like 5 mins. so we just ate our food at the station then waited for the train. My Dad knew that the train for Lakeshore W was on track 2 so we waited there, only us waited there, and all the people were waiting at track 3a so we were like "why were all the people there but the train is going here." so we still waited at track2 then the train at 3a arrived and we still waited. then we were wondering why's the train doesn't arrive yet then i saw the board that the 3a was the track that the lakeshore train will be arriving. so WE MISSED IT AGAIN!!! (the train comes after an hour) so we waited again for an hour. haha stupid stupid. so we waited again and looked at the screen what track is the train be arriving and we didn't missed it this time.
PS:FEDERER WON! YES! YES! YES!!!! HAHA! US OPEN CHAMPION!!! :)
The Space Between- Dave Matthews Band Album: Everyday
You cannot quit me so quickly There's no hope in you for me No corner you could squeeze me But I got all the time for you, love
The Space Between The tears we cry Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more The Space Between The wicked lies we tell And hope to keep safe from the pain
But will I hold you again? These fickle, fuddled words confuse me Like 'Will it rain today?' Waste the hours with talking, talking These twisted games we're playing
We're strange allies With warring hearts What wild-eyed beast you be The Space Between The wicked lies we tell And hope to keep safe from the pain
Will I hold you again? Will I hold...
Look at us spinning out in The madness of a roller coaster You know you went off like a devil In a church in the middle of a crowded room All we can do, my love Is hope we don't take this ship down
The Space Between Where you're smiling high Is where you'll find me if I get to go The Space Between The bullets in our firefight Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you The rain that falls Splash in your heart Ran like sadness down the window into The Space Between Our wicked lies Is where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand 'Cause we're walking out of here Oh, right out of here Love is all we need here
The Space Between What's wrong and right Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you The Space Between Your heart and mine Is the space we'll fill with time The Space Between
RUSSELL PETER SAID: There's once an Indian guy named suckdeep. SUCKDEEP. SUCKDEEP. Prataaab. What if someone's calling you, "Yo, SUCKDEEP!" haha. haha. Also, one Indian gurl he knows was ugly and her name was Pretty."Hi, I'm Pretty." elk! But the first one was betterr. SUCKDEEP, PRATAAAAB. Haha. experience my happiness :)
Atlast, the long awaited layout is done. kaso ang crappy nga lang. haha. napagalitan nanaman ako. wawa. :( well. I still have 2 more books to read so. later.
Haaaaaay buhay. thanks to my friends, haha naiyak ako ng sobra nung kinakausap ko sila. haha tapos ngayon ewan ko ba. nanunud na lang ako ng mga movies. hehe. ala lang. para masaya, no worries. ako lang mag-isa sa bahay. how happy i am. no worries. manonood lang ako magdamag, bahala na.
hmmm, grade 10 guitar? matututo kaya ako. ngayon nga parang iniisip ko gusto kong magminor ng guitar sa university? feeling ko kapaag naggigitara ako nawawala mga problems ko. no worries. haha. for 2 hours ako mag-isa sa bahay or more. hehe. :D
Thanks guyz, you know who you are, nalabas ko sama ng loob ko :)
The Sharp Hint Of New Tears- Dashboard Confessional
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well. gumising ako maaga ngayon. 8:00! hello, di naman kasi ako early bird eh. jogging kami ng mga titas ko. haha. tapos pupunta kami dentist. 1 year na kong di na dedentista. haha. simula ng kararating ko dito sa Canada. hehe. 1:00 mamaya. sana la ako masyadong cavity, pero alam ko magpapastahan ako. :) hehe. sana di masakit dito. kasi sa pinas ammmm ok lang. di ko pa alam eh. :(
uhauha. baka bigyan ako ng toothbrush ng dentista mamaya :S
well.. tagal na kong di naguupdate sa blog na to. :) la naman.. may test kami tapos MATH test ko bukas. di naman masyadong mahirap ang nirereview ko pero syempre, may mga mali parin ako sa exam... hehe. sana wala... eun tinawagan ako ni Cheska jogging daw kami.. hahaha. HOLY— SUMMER NA!!! :) HOT! HOT! HOT! la namang masyadong nangyari ngaun.. nagreview lang ako tapos natulog magdamag. tapos muxh more music video awards ngaun... la namang maxadong magandang nangyari talaga ngaun eh.. EXAM WEEK=HELL WEEK!!! :)
Asar!!! ULAN ULAN ULAN! asin nasa bus stop na ko.. umulan pa.. kakasar.... biglang buhos ng malakas!!! asar eh... paguwi ko tuloy napagalitan ako... haha... pero alm nmn nila na umulan bigla no.. haha... nakita pa ko ng tatay ko.... :( hehe.. nakita ko c kuya nagtatrabaho.... :D kaso badtrip ata xa... hehe... tumamabay kami sa wendy's ni ate thea... haha... la lang trip... andun clang tatlo ni paulo, ate pma, at c kuya ko na binigyan akong pera... haha sipsip eh! :) magbabasa pa kong libro.. haha... babayo... :)
nagsign out ako ng period 4 at 5... haha nung nagsisignout ako napagalitan ako ni mrs. ginn.. hayaan mo xa.. letche xa... tapos nakita pa ko nung teacher ko! buwisit! hahaha... dapat pupunta ako s tita ko.. eh naudlot.. hahha. edi nagmovie nalang kaming 2 ni ate Pam nilibre kami ni ate thea at ate di.. galing clang toronto eh... la lang share ko lang...nag bell muna kami kasi nagtititingin cla ng cell tsaka best buy at adidas.. haha gastos gastos!!! hahahah. tapos pinanood namin ung MI3... ok naman xa mejo suspense.. ewan ko kinakabahan ako eh... pero ok nmn.. mejo di ko rin naintindihan eh... pero magnda ung movie.. haha.. tapos c ate teha.. nasa labas ng sine! haha binigyan kaming chocolates!! "kissables" tapos dapat nga pauwi na kami eh... gustong gustong mapanood ni ate pam ung CLose to You ni John Lloyd at Bea.. kaya pumunta muna kami sa bahay nila... nanuud kami... tapos un mgaumuwi ako... mga ammm... quarter to 11?! haha.. 15 mins. bago dumating daddy ko.. buti di nia nlmng ganung oras ako umuwi.. kundi... tadtad nanaman ako ng sermon... hahahaaa!!! pagnangyari un maasar nanaman ako... hahaha... tapos nanuud ako ng closed case!! KAHPON UNG SMALLVILLE!!! LA LANG! share ko lang... kinakabahan ako.. di ko na masundan.. hahaha... neweiz.. ok lang yan.. tapos maya manunuud pa ko.. ng... :)
TELL WHAT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT WHEN YOU ARE GONE NOW! WE LAY, WE LAY TOGETHER NOT JUST TOO CLOSE, TOO CLSOE!~I:M GONNA MAKE DAMN SURE!
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